The start of a meaningless blog
I'm not particularly good at managing anything: time, stress, work, relationships. It's all just pointless to me at times. I just want a simple life. I can get that with my goal. The goal of becoming a teacher was something I had been set on for such a long time and I still think I can accomplish that. I can't help, but to think of so many setbacks. I want to live already. Bills, driving, alcohol, love, meaningful sex, and the full sense of temporary. I want to be a sad, pathetic adult. And then there's the part of me that wants to remain as a child forever. To never age, to never birth, to never change in state of mind. When will a person grow out of such a contradicting phase?~♡